Do you know what I love about video games? You can restart the game if you don’t like the route you took. Take Sims, for example; if you don’t like the career you chose, the house you built, or the people you met, you can just start the game again. I sometimes wish life was like that, where you could see what another path would have been like if you made one slight difference.
Last month, I started to question my life choices. I started seeing friends again, and I listened to what they’ve achieved in the past year. Yes, I am proud of them, but a part of me wondered, would I be where they are if I chose differently?
It is hard to know if the path you took is the right one if you cannot compare the two.
This mindset caused me just to stop. I felt like I couldn’t possibly move forward without having an action plan in place. Take blogging, for example; I kept telling myself, I’ll sit down tomorrow and focus on it all. I’ll do it ALL. Schedule Tweets, write blog posts, create Pinterest Pins, schedule Instagram posts, but of course, tomorrow came, time ran out, and I told myself I would do it tomorrow.
It became this big chore rather than something I enjoyed doing. I didn’t want it to be, but that is what it became.
I fixated on what would happen next, what the next step was, rather than focusing on now. I wanted the full plan rather than appreciating the moment and writing because I loved it.
Sometimes you just don’t know
The truth is, sometimes you just don’t know what tomorrow will bring. You know in school, when you are asked, what do you want to be when you are older? We are told we have to pick a profession now. Sometimes you just don’t know, and why is that not okay?
Sometimes it takes longer for some to know what they want to do in life, and that’s okay. It shouldn’t be rushed, and you should savour the journey as you go. Everyone has a different story of how they ended up in their dream job or ideal life.
So, when asked the question, what do you want to be when you are older? I’d rather answer with one word – happy.
I don’t have to respawn at 18 to go down a different path in my life. I can make the changes today that will affect my future, as it is never too late to restart.
That’s why I am clicking restart for September.
For my blog, that means I am focusing on writing what I want, and my adventures, the struggles and the experiences I have as a twenty-something-year-old.
I don’t know what tomorrow will bring, but right now, I am happy creating content I enjoy and trying new ways to create content on different platforms. Sure, I will make mistakes, and it might not work, but I’ll keep trying and at each stage, I will remember that everyone starts somewhere, everyone struggles at some point, and no one really knows what they are doing.
With me clicking restart, this means one thing – more content coming your way! After writing this post, I felt inspired to write, and it felt like I never wanted to stop. I have scheduled four posts, for September, at the time of writing this, and I can’t wait to share each one with you.
Reading this back, it does seem like quite a ramble, and a large percentage of my being wants to go back and change it, but I won’t. Writing everything felt like a deep sign after a tiring day. It felt like that first stretch in the morning when you wake up or lying under a warm blanket after being outside in the rain.
It might be a bit chaotic, but so is life, let’s be honest. If the past year has shown us anything, it’s that we never know what will happen next.
I always finish my post with a question, but I’m not sure what question to ask this time around. Let’s go with, what one change have you made this year that you love?
Maybe you’ve started running, drinking coffee or dyed your hair, anything? Let me know in the comments.